I lost a friend

You know that feeling when you drop something, and everything around you goes slow motion and and you just stand there watching the dropped item getting closer and closer to the ground. Then after the dropped item hits the ground, everything suddenly goes back to normal speed, if not even faster, as you start looking for damage. So yeah.. I kind of broke my computer. Good news is that it still works and all my files are still there, but without an extra screen it's pretty useless. So blogging might take a small break every now and then (how convenient right now when things are finally starting to happen in my life).
Shortly about last days; a bunch (by a bunch I mean a lot) of new longterm volunteers came here a couple of days ago,things are changing. Just like when I came here, and all the old volunteers slowly leaving. Today two of the new ones, who will work in my school, came there for the first time and I felt a little bit blue. It made me realize I really have just one week left with the kids. Then I have two weeks of holiday. Before that I should still be writing my youthpass and whatnot. At least I guess I have more time now to deal with my business as I can not watch Carrie Diaries all day.
I was so sad and angry and frustrated by my own stupidity yesterday. But breaking a computer is not the end of the world (right....?). Anyway no serious damage to the insides (professional terms) happened. Just sometimes life can be super unpredictable. And I didn't even realize how dependent I can be on this piece of electronics, I mean not necessarily addicted, but for the first time in a long time I sat home all night going like "I never noticed the walls were so yellow". I want to believe that I'm a creative person though, I can figure something out.

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